Shopping again!

Well today Mom and I took a quick trip up to Briarcliff for some shopping at Nell Hills. It was good to see her out she had the cutest outfit on little cami with sweater. She is already liking her new boobies lots!! More then the cute outfit she just looked happy, clear minded and relaxed. It was just good to be out of the house and we always have fun shopping!

Last week we had a little rerun back at the hospital for a day and half due to some flu or infection. Whatever it was my opinion of the hospital is not very high right now. So I will save that for another blog! So it was nice to see her out and about today even if it was a yucky kind of day.

I have noticed when I am am with her that her since of relief is so strong she just has a different way about her as if the worlds biggest load has been deleted from her life. I can't begin to imagine what 2o years of testing and wondering when the next lump or bad test result would appear, could you? Her since of peace has just had to grown by leaps and bounds these past few weeks. I am so thankful going into to this next week for all that I have in my life. Mom's recent experiences just kind of are the icing on the cake when it comes to my being thankful.

I have been taking/studying yoga and one of the things we do at the end of each class is lay on our mats and think of three things we are grateful for. Over the past three weeks I can't begin to tell you how many times my gratitude has started with my moms name. I am so grateful for her love and care of my sister and I. I am so grateful for the way she loves my children and the way she loves my niece and nephew. I am so grateful for how she takes our friends and our families and just begins to love on them as if they are hers too.

This thanksgiving I am thankful for the loving caring mother I have as well as my father and both of my stepparents who have blessed me, the wonderful partner in life I have in my husband, the two beautiful children who still live at home with me and allow me to be so involved with their lives and love on their friends too, my oldest son and his perfect little wife I am so thankful for her love of my son, of course my perfect niece and nephew whom I adore more then words can say, my precious puppies who sleep with me every night daddy is traveling and make me so welcome every time mommy opens the door, and my newest love Miss Legacy the precious little girl who comes and shares her fridays with me and lets me love on her while her mommy is at work thank you Legacy Miss Chrysy Loves you very much! WOW I have so much to be thankful for.

May you have a blessed turkey day next week!!!

Mama Huff

Exhaustion setting in.....

Well it's been one week ago almost to the minute since I left mom at the hospital tucked away all nicely in her room. What a week it has been. So many people have come to help, bring food, and I have never seen so many flowers. Thank you everyone.

Watching mom today I could see her feeling some of what I am certainly feeling, exhaustion. My exhaustion is coming I think a-lot from worrying and stressing over everything. Mom's exhaustion is coming from plain old Boredom!! Jebbo and I have drug her to the park a few times this week where she took little walks and watched all the little people interact. This I think has been good for her to just feel some sunshine, see the trees, and get some fresh air. I know it has to get old sleeping, flipping channels, reading magazines, etc.

Obviously the healing is gonna take much longer then we all thought. She cannot do laundry or heavy lifting, putting clothes on over her head, or carry a purse for up to 6 mos. These are all changes for her. So not only is she experiencing physical changes and challenges she is also dealing with readjustments on depending on Al and all the rest of us.

We still have a long road to go but when it's over it will be over for good this time. No more needle pokes, experimental drugs, this part of the journey is over. Praise be to God.

Mom said the other day "I'm tired and sore but a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders". Twenty years of breast cancer studies and test and worries are now gone. I am thankful for this and for my Mom and her life.

Thank you everyone and please continue to Pray, call and visit!! She still needs lot's of friends. Tomorrow is her first post op visit so please be in prayer for her their are a few things she is very hopeful happen tomorrow which are road markers for her healing process.

In Gratitude to everyone.

-Mama Huff